I started of my day thinking that I am going to be defeated by the progress of technology. What I really mean is that I am finally getting my self a cell-phone; one that is relatively technologically up-to-date.

Turns out that is not the case. I am finally defeated in my insistence of partaking the Lord’s supper.

I insisted not to take any communion because I felt I was not ready to partake in such a holy communion. Today I was convicted. Pastor Ray said that if anyone does not believe that Christ is their savior, then s/he should restrain her/himself from partaking the Lord’s supper.

I felt the time was right to finally take a concrete and commitment-binding action to profess my faith in Jesus Christ.

Part of delaying this for a really long time was the thought that I need to deal with certain sins of mine first. What I realized is that Jesus’ cross has allowed me to partake in this [also read: only because of His grace]. I was once reminded of Romans 8:35-39

³⁵ Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? ³⁶ As it is written:

“For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”^[a]

³⁷ No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. ³⁸ For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,^[b] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, ³⁹ neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Now I understand the importance of being involved in a community as a Christian. [I felt the biggest symbolism for this is partaking in the communion].

Also, this doesn’t undermine my attempt to deal with that particular sin of mine. It affirms my will and commitment to deal with this sin. I have faith that Jesus has the power and is delivering me out of that Egypt.

In Christ,

~andre